cold cards: various selections

Apr 30

Afternoon Nap

My head rests on her back as she breathes rhythmically as if she’s dreaming in 3/4 time.
My eyelids begin to close like heavy curtains as the lights dim. I am floating - between reality and fantasy -still I listen to her breaths. A soft reminder that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be…
In this moment there are no worries, no fears, no ambitions, no thoughts. I’m simply floating as my brain shuts off and takes a break.
Our legs, intertwined under the afternoon covers begin to grow together like roots underground.
She is now asleep and I begin to smile, knowing that she is safe and she is mine - if she could speak she would tell me that we’ll always be together and this moment will never end….
As our bodies grow warmer she turns over and I stare at her, examining every single imperfection, characteristic, curve and line. She is perfect and she is mine.
Time marches on and I can’t slow it down, some sick cosmic joke - there will never be enough time. I grow anxious, knowing this moment too will soon end. I begin to nervously think about how to persevere this feeling, to capture and trap it.. I cannot.
And then with a soft kiss I wake her and she smiles and makes me feel warm, igniting a truly undefinable feeling. I want to tell her exactly what she means to me but I fall short - unable to place words together in such a way that could truly describe how I feel. So for now I will wait ———-

carrying this secret of Love.

Apr 01

Bad Calls: Gambling Errors (part I) -

peterporter:

The lessons are becoming harder and harder. I used to enjoy the rush and swings of playing Poker and Blackjack. However, when I was wagering $40-$80 a night the stakes weren’t too high. But now the swings are becoming much bigger and it hard to calm my nerves after a night like last night.

I…

A blurb I wrote about poker over a year ago. If you have been down and out.. This story may cheer you up.

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Oct 06

Weekly Cash Game

I will be hosting a weekly $1-$2NL Hold-Em cash game at my house.

Fridays @ 1030p-2a. Come play some cards with some of Arizonas finest (degenerates)

Aug 18

Bad Calls: Gambling Errors (part I)

The lessons are becoming harder and harder. I used to enjoy the rush and swings of playing Poker and Blackjack. However, when I was wagering $40-$80 a night the stakes weren’t too high. But now the swings are becoming much bigger and it hard to calm my nerves after a night like last night.

I arrived at Talking Stick at about 7pm with $250 ready to play my game of choice: $2-$3 no-limit Texas Hold ‘Em. I was called into a table at seat 5, between an older Asian woman and a business man. The first hour was, for the most part, uneventful. I had taken down a couple of small pots and was sitting at about $330. With a solid read on my opponents and a pleasant atmosphere my confidence was bolstered and I was certain I would be able to triple my money before the end of my session. However, things changed when I came across the following hand.

The small/big blind post their antes and the Asian lady to the right of me, who was under the gun, raised to $15. With the action on me I look down to my hole cards and I see a beautiful hand, 2 black Kings. With pocket K’s I decide to re-raise, “Make it $45” I say with confidence. A tight player in seat 7 calls my raise, as well as the small blind, and the Asian lady. Nobody re-raised my raise so I was certain I had the best starting hand. I figured the guy in seat 7 for pocket Qs, and wasn’t sure what seats 2 and 4 were holding.

Then comes the flop: J-9-J. Seats 2 & 4 both check so I decide to bet $75. Seat 7 quickly shoves all of his chips in for about $180 total. Now the man in seat 2 is debating whether or not to call, while the Asian lady to my right is holding her cards in a manner which suggests that she is going to fold. While this is going on I replay the events through my head, “So, there was a $15 raise preflop, I re-raised to $45 and nobody tried to re-pop my bet. I think seat 7 has Pocket Q’s, Seat 2 probably has a strong Ace (e.g. AK, AQ, A10suited) and it looks like seat 4 is going to fold.” I continue to ensure myself that I am a huge favorite to win this pot, “Okay Alex. There’s about $415 in the pot, you have the best hand, you got this.” Seat 2 finally folds, but then out of nowhere the Asian lady pushes all of her chips in. Without hesitating I say “call”. At this point seats 4 & 7 are both all-in while I still have about $80 left. 

Before the dealer is finished dealing the turn and river I flip over K’s and seat 7 quietly mucks his hand, pocket Queens. Now all that stands between me and the $580 pot is a small Asian lady with a striped shirt. The board now read: J-9-J-7-9. With my K’s face up on the table I am certain I have just won, when she remarks “I have fuhh howse” the accent just furthering my hatred for her. She flips over K-J for Jacks full of 9s. 

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY ON TILT.

I drop another $100 bill on the table giving me a total of $160 in chips. Two hands later I end up busting out to the same woman when I go all in on the flop with a suited Q-8, while the board read: 10-6-3 with two spades. The final spade never came. Now I am down $400 in two hours and I know I should probably call it a night, but I don’t.

Over the course of the next couple of hours I withdraw $200 twice, loosing it on bad calls and some ill advised slot play. I end up leaving the casino at 4:30am with a single $100 bill in my pocket and a valet ticket. I try not to think about the money I just lost and distract myself during the lonely ride home. I wake up at 10am this morning, almost forgetting that I had just lost $800 about 10 hours prior, but then quickly remember. I drive into work and sit down in my office chair and think, “Fuck! I wasted almost a grand last night and have nothing to show for it. I should have bought a new T.V. or something. I’m a fucking idiot”. 

I know my friends are going to be disappointing in me, but they’ve gotten used to the swings almost as much as I have. I’ve found it is very difficult to build one’s bankroll. I keep fluctuating +/- $1,000 every 1-2 weeks. I sure hope I find a way to steadily build it up, otherwise I won’t be able to keep playing. 

-A.P.

Aug 13

"I have a good poker face because I am half-dead inside" 

"I have a good poker face because I am half-dead inside" 

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i am alex peter porter. i play in several bands including: TOAD , D.H.B. , and The Microscopes. i am also a recent graduate with a Bachelors in sociology/psychology.

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